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Susie Mawhinney's avatar

I literally don't know which part of this to quote first... what a brilliant, honest and brave essay. Huge applause from me Ben! At an age even further advanced into the second half of life than you I understand, all of me understands.The importance and need to control our diminishing time is ever present and for all my efforts ever more difficult to find pockets of, unless burning the midnight candle into the small hours counts - there is always a price to pay though and there shouldn't be not to do the thing we love and want most.

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Veronika Bond's avatar

First of all, thank you Ben, for giving voice to this topic that bugs so many of us. What stands out for me, and what I can relate to most is this:

“It’s taken me the better part of four decades to admit this…. also the engine behind every creative skill I ever developed.”

And this:

“So I spent most of my life self-sabotaging … still wrestling with this thing.”

And this:

“We need to believe there’s something more than our hollow existence, …and to be enough we must change who we are.”

In other words, there is an inner conflict, this self-sabotage, which we clearly recognise and wrestle with, which also becomes part of the fuel for our creative work. And we might see people half our age and half as talented or accomplished in their art form achieve far greater material success…

On one hand we are yearning for this success, at the same time we are, perhaps, dreading it, sabotaging ourselves... while at the collective level, AI seems to be taking over ‘our creative work’ undermining it all as we speak (and write, play music, paint, draw…)

I am intimately familiar with this dilemma in myself. I don’t (yet) know how to resolve it. I do believe, however, that we may each have an important role to play in its resolution simply based on the fact that it is such a bugbear!

The main conclusion I’ve come to (for myself so far) is that I don’t want to feed the existing structures, which are set up to exploit the artist, drain our creative energies, turn our art into consumable products to be exploited by AI, or the industrial complex of the ‘creative industries’.

Of course it would be fantastic to earn enough money with my work to cover my costs of living (which I don’t, and have no idea how to do that within the current structure of the publishing industry)

But I do feel an immense gratitude and awe for the creative process itself. I appreciate that I do have this intimate relationship with my creative genius who is nudging me along to keep writing, who has gifted me with 28 years and counting of creative work which is just getting better all the time, which I consider the greatest gift. I feel this is a great start, and I am continuously feeding this creative source (as I can see you doing as well…)

Whenever I feel despondent about ‘this situation’, I turn towards my creative genius in wonder, and I feel reassured, because it is us, the creators who have direct access to the source!

I often wonder, how can we use our creative resources to flourish? How can we create an entirely new path, bypassing all those unsustainable structures that don’t serve us?

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